The Curious Case of my Perception.

Exactly 1 year ago .

I was planning for my Shanghai Trip.

Time and Freedom was never an issue.

I was sort of looking forward to enlistment then,

Filled with confidence and i believe that I will be able to adapt to the grueling trainings and strict regimentation.

Little do I know, whats in store for me.

On my first day of enlistment ,I did not shred a little tear after I leave my family.

"This is nothing ,I can endure through the confinement week."I thought to myself.

In an brink of an eye,1 week passed by .

I was missing my home,friends and family members like crazy.

I couldn't wait to get out of Tekong as

the regiment lifestyle was driving me nuts.

All the marching commands sounded alien to me.

I should have joined a Uniform Group back in my Secondary School Days

I was really unfortunate to be posted to Cougar Company.

Their planning schedule is loathsome and most of the time, I booked out only on Saturdays.

The weekends were so precious to me.Spending quality time with my family and Ah Ma is my top priority. Occasionally I would met up with my Poly Friends and Buddy.

I became dejected and disoriented.

There wasn't anyone I could turn to

cause none of them were able to relate what I have experienced

I often turn deaf to their advices and encouragements,

Eventually some of the recruits were granted to Down Pes due to their sickness.

I began to admire them and consider them as the lucky ones,

I yearned to be like them and begin to find symptoms of illness in me.

Apparently I also have a lot of friends whom succeeded in getting a down Pes and

I started to heed their advices and assumed that this is the Way of Escape .

I was diagnosed with a lymph node on my neck .

When the posting of my new unit came out,I was stupefy to know that I was posted to the Infamous Guards Unit.

I wonder why SAF did not have an medical record of my Lymph Node.

I regretted as I did not opt to go for command school.

As Guards Training is equivalent to Sispec Training.

Anyway Regret is a absolute waste of time.

I can't change anything of my past.

I decided that I want to be a Fighting Fit Soldier and try my best not to fall sick.

If I have such an attitude in the beginning of my army phrase .

My Life would have been so different.

I do respect my fellow comrades who have a positive mindset about NS.

They don't whine ,fuss or bear grudges against the hardship they went through.

They just simply enjoy the whole process of NS.

I really try hard to be like them and want change my lousy mentality.

I guess I need more time..........

A poem for you

When Loneliness knocks on you door,

Fear Crept in again once more .

Vulnerable and Lost ,

Your Heart turns frost .

The Friends you seek,

There is none to speak .

I Yearn to there ,

To see your Heart Tear ,

but there is no Time to Spare,

What a Sad Affair.

I found this poem when I was packing my cabinet.
It was written 4 years ago for someone.
It gives me the creeps when i read it now.

LOLX

413 days of army

After crossing a smelly river and walking 32km through the endless night.

Passing 2 stations of weapon proficiency test and shooting 100m range seems like a impossible feat.

I was so "shag" that I was hallucinating during my last 4km.

All the trees looks like the checkpoint to me,I even thought I saw Irwin's face on the tree.

Nothing is Impossible and I managed to accomplished this unachievable task !!!

The Reward -The Infantry Coveted Combat Skills badge aka Cheap Skate badge.

The Surprise- Booking out on Thursday.

Its' all worth while!

I would do almost anything for the one day of freedom.

Just caught the movie- Just Another Pandora Box.

Its a lame shit movie and its the 4th Chinese film I watched this year.

I realized that I have not caught any Hollywood Film so far.

I missed out Avatar,Percy Jackson and The Lighting Thief and Dear John.

I wouldn't want to miss the much anticipated Clash Of the Titans.

Rumor has it that my Crescendo ISPC Trip may be cancelled due

to the riots by the Red shirts in Bangkok.

We could be going to Taiwan instead.

I seriously hope that this will come true!

Ps:I am gonna enjoy the rest of my looooooooooong weekend..

Time

It is inevitable to change as time passes by,

Cause Time betrays your faith,love ,trust and moral .

You will come to a point of time when you no longer can accept yourself.

I don't want to be manipulated by time

What a Bloody Mess!

As a Scout Trooper ,I have to learn lotsa things

One of them is to perform IV drip on a casualty.

We have to conduct a live IV on our buddy

and Alvin is so unfortunate to be my victim.

On my first attempt ,my hands were so shaky that I caused his vein to rapture which leads to swelling.

On my Second attempt,I did not manage to insert the cannula into his vein

so I had to adjust the needle in his skin to reach his vein .

I cannot imagine the pain he went through.

But I was rather surprised by his reaction,instead of screaming in pain.

He was giggling at my clumsiness.

While,He had his fair share of revenge.

Instead of taking out the cannula from my vein slowly.

He ripped it out from my vein and before I know it,

I was bleeding profusely.

I guess my expression was classic ,

Cause Alvin can't stop laughing at me.

Counting Down:421 days

I am a living dead.